Sunday, 30 November 2008

Thankfully...


Things are getting better. They are.

I think my last post was a super downer and as such, lead people to draw conclusions that oversimplified the matter.

First, as I said in a comment on the last post, Thursday's offering was a snapshot of how I felt at a particular time, in that very moment. Even a few minutes later, once I'd gotten everything out there, I started to feel better. And today I feel better still.

My friend S had her baby last night. I'm ecstatic for her and her wonderful hubby - truly I am. I was honoured and happy to be the go to person who got the updates from her/her husband and relayed them to our circle of friends.

My friend L had her baby shower today and I was very glad I went. We had a lovely time, she looked amazing, and she got some wonderful things. I rocked the clothespin game, had some yummy food, and enjoyed hanging out with my friends. I may not have pleased Great Aunt Beverly who took an almost instant disliking to me when I took her clothespins but hey, you can't befriend everyone, right?

So yes, I'm okay. I am happy for my friends and have been able to pull myself out of where I was a mere three days ago. And that's a good thing! Isn't it?

I'm having a really hard time though, knowing that one of my friends, someone who obviously knows me well, thinks that I'm blaming other friends for their success, that I shouldn't be surprised if those friends decide it's time to rethink their friendship with me.

This one really rocked me. I barely even know how to respond. I...I'm speechless, because I can't figure out who thinks this way, who thinks this way about me.

Anyway, just wanted to give that bit of an update for those that were worried about me or thinking that I'm in some nasty place without any hope of escape. Yes, Thursday was a shit day through and through. But thankfully those feelings, while so very valid at the time (and therefore I will offer no apologies for having them), have ebbed and today is another, brighter day.

Thanks to those of you that understand, and to those that don't, talk to me. Send me a fb message, whatever, but please...own what you say so we can actually discuss it.

Hope everyone had a great weekend and is ready to make the leap into December tomorrow!!!

And that's your daily dash. How's your diva doin'?

9 comments on "Thankfully..."

Anonymous said...

Diva,

Sorry that you've got a mole in your midst. It's hard to figure out this infertility crap but to have someone who "knows" you but still says hurtful things? Sheesh, that's just ugly. I really believe that some people will never, ever get it.

Sending lots of love and hugs your way,
Minnie xo

Anonymous said...

Take that Great Aunt Betty :) Glad to hear there's good news and positive thoughts all around. Be prepared for some up and some down days. As long as there are more good than bad, you're doing well.
Kermit

Shoe_Gal said...

You have a new picture. It's beautiful.

You'll be okay.

Hugs,

-Jill

Anonymous said...

Diva -
Sorry for being so quiet while you have been going through everything. You and hubs have been in my thoughts for a long time. And I really wish I could give you a big hug. Thank you for a more positive message. And I can't wait to see you soon.
Camilla

JSteadman on 2 December 2008 at 10:25 said...

So glad to see that things are getting better, Diva. No better proof of that than the fantastic PINK! Christmas decoration pic. :)

Always remember that you have friends who love and support you, who will always be here for you when you need us. We will cheer with you, mourn with you, and scoop you up off the floor as needed. We especially appreciate your blog, when we aren't able to see you and hubs as often as we'd like.

Anonymous said...

Love you Lady!

Hugs,

JBJ

Marlene on 3 December 2008 at 15:33 said...

LOL @ Aunt Beverly.

You did great on Sunday. I find your strength inspiring.

Wishing good things for you. ((HUGS))

Anita on 5 December 2008 at 13:03 said...

Great to see some updates DJ - good or bad. I truley admire that you can script out your feelings so well. Such candor. Cheers to you.

Hugs.

Rosehip on 30 December 2008 at 20:33 said...

Hey babe!

Can you link me on your site and I will do the same?

Thanks!

Love Yah!

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